(Mikey: It’s my time to take over and be you)
Ironic! Very, very ironic. She started it and taught me something called commitment and then turned the whole damn thing around.
Looking back on the past I can still reminiscent what she said to her friends that I was “the one she wanted” and that “I’m perfect for her”. Well of course I didn’t hear it directly, I just heard it from my friends, which they have heard it from their friends who are actually her friends. She always said that I was the one she has been hoping to have and that she would dedicate herself to me for ever.
We started as friends and that rainy afternoon around the end of year 2002 we, no I, began the relationship which she said to be “the most anticipated” episode in her life (that time). And so it was, she turned my life around, gave some colors to my life, attached me to her humongous family, and managed my life. Everything was beautiful. She even taught me about commitment and how to love somebody whole-heartedly. I learnt fast. Very fast in fact that I was unaware and got blinded.
My world was all about her and around her. I was possessed. Almost 2 years I lived in that brightly-colored world of illusions. When suddenly someone or something shook me off and brought me back to reality. And from that point on I realized that I had been cheated big time!
But it was too late. She’s already slipping of my hands and all her lessons about being committed to one another started to crumble and falling apart into big chunks which shattered to the hard ground into smithereens. It turned the other way around. Then, she broke me up saying all sorts of things; from all the lies that I’ve shared to the part of me being so childish. From my dreams—which she thought to be unrealistic and vague—to the lack of treatment & attentions that she has received from me. She unfolded it all to me from A to Z.
She did all of those things to hide her deceits, her sins, her flaws. Once again she blinded me with all her words and no matter how I apologized… Well, it turned out to be so useless. Even my existence and my presence for her was a total mess that should be erased and corrected.
Years passed and soon I realized that what she had taught me during those days were not about commitment and true love. In fact it was all about infidelities, betrayals and most of all about hatred.
I learnt the true meaning of being unfaithful from her. I also learnt that it was because of her I entered this hypocritical world. I hate hypocrites and she’s one of those worst hypocrites ever to live on Earth.
